I would like to use this blog as an apology. I would like to say sorry for being an unsociable bastard just recently. I honestly seem to be stuck in a vortex of work.
Now I don't fully understand why. I would like to think that I am good at managing my time, I like to make time for my friends, and I have been accused, on occasion of putting my social life before work.
I would like to think I am still the same, but yet this last month or so I have barely seen many of my friends in a social time (By that I mean a night out, occasional pint, or a run out, not prearranged like playing football and Boro matches). I also have neglected this blog, not deliberately, but that I have had nothing interesting to write about. It is something about the mundane that stifles and frustrates me, I see things I want to write about, though when it comes to it I don't have the energy to write it down. This subject here could also classed as boring, but I am determined to get something written.
Maybe its because a lot of my social ventures involves drinking alcohol and I have a lot of early starts. I am fearing that my days of working while hungover are leaving me, and that would be a real shame, as it has made up quite a crucial part of my working life.
So this makes me ask myself, am I getting old? Somebody older than me, once said that it was a fact of life and that you make friends, then lose them, then make some more as you go through life. At the time, I thought it was rubbish and that with a bit of effort you could keep in touch with everyone you wanted. Now as I get older I am finding myself being lured into the everyday schedule of work and home, without any effort or feeling that I should be going out, or doing something, making the most of the time I have.
Now I will hold my hands up and state that I have projects on, I am not wasting my time in front of the telly.
I am trying to write a book, I am to begin training for a half marathon (which I will start to chronicle on here), yet I am still don't feel as though I being fulfilled, or on the other side of the coin, having fun.
So I have taken the conscious effort to plan my time. My time for work, my time for other work/projects, and time to socialise. I went on a night out for the first time in ages last Monday. It was fun. I have felt better in myself since then (well apart from the day after, hungover at work was minging) So I will be making changes, making more time for my friends, starting this weekend. I am off, I have a good friend coming to visit Teesside for the first time, so this will be a great excuse for me to get out and change things. To make myself happier, and hopefully less dull.
This blog maybe incoherent, it may lack substance, and probably a little dull, yet, for me it is a step in the right direction.